Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I'm more depressed right now.. My mum needs to go to hospital for a blood transfution.. Her amount of blood left is only 8.6 which is very little.. We are all encouraging her to go to the hospital but she stubbornly refused to.. She is afraid that the blood transfution will fail again and she would again experience the side effects like fever.. She is afraid that if she do the blood transfution, she might passed away in the hospital.. But Shao Kai is right. If she doesn't accept the blood transfution, she will still pass away eventually.. So either way she will still passed away but the choice with the better and bigger hope is that she go to the hospital.. Perhaps her moment is coming.. 2 months passed so fast as though like the rain drops.. Her amount of cancer cell (or you call the marker) has increased. From 100+ to 2000 over.. Which means the cancer cell has spread.. Now mum has the cancer cells in her bone marrow. Poor mummy.. I really hope she can accept it and go to the hospital. I want her to live on... She can't break her promises! She said she would teach me how to cook her delicacies when I'm old enough! She said she would look at me graduate from sec school. She said she would help me makeup for my prom night! She said she would want to see me get married.. How can she back out like that?! Gods' unfairness pissed me off!! UNFAIR! SO DARN UNFAIR! GOD YOU NOT!

Please please please please please please please please please please please PRAY FOR HER! FOR THE LAST TIME! I BEG YOU!

In a pedastrian paradise.